my mom

[Drunk Monk]

Fuck the default world.

I had a virtual appt scheduled for my mom today but it was cancelled at the very last minute because her insurance doesn't cover it and virtuals aren't available to new patients. I went virtual because it was the earliest and her blood pressure medication needs refilling, but her previous doctor, who is now out of network, stopped fulfilling it because he's no longer her doctor. An in-person appointment has been scheduled for March but she'll be off her med for well over a month by then. This all happened just minutes before the virtual appt was to take place. 

When I got to my mom's, she was upset that she didn't remember the appt, and that she thought I was in Mexico this week and that I visited her last week. She kept cycling over this, calling herself 'stupid' and hitting herself. I dstracted her with some xmas cards from people that neither of us remember, relatives I think. 

I'm emotionally raw after returning from Mexico to lackluster sales at YMAA and the passing of Bobby, of course. I'm taking tonight off.