my mom

[Drunk Monk]

Sleep is for the weak.

That was my motto when I was a deadhead. I'm still a deadhead, but I don't do the sort of drugs that allowed me to subscribe to that strategy anymore.  It's just caffeine - top shelf tea, good coffee, and this little caffeinated M&M things I found at Whole Foods. Been popping way to many of those lately.  

I'm actually getting the downtime.  It's just that I lie awake, tweaking on all the crap I must take care of next.  Did I mention that I fell asleep at a stoplight last week.  That was bad.  

So I spent today going back and forth between the nursing home, El Camino, and PAMF.  As it turns out, they don't share records unless you request them.  My mom had her review at the nursing home and the doc is going to try titrate her oxy, which is good because it's making her constipated and loopy. They also said time is up and she's discharging Sunday as she's already been there a week longer than initially scheduled. I accompanied her to a neuro appt at PAMF and the PA was shocked at how high her oxy script was.  She's recommending another appt asap to get her set up with a cortisone shot. That'll have to be next week, after the office move, like Wednesday or later, because I need to accompany her.  Then I went back and forth to get some records transferred - forms, signatures, etc. but that got done thankfully.  Also I picked up the PAMF proxy forms - thanks again for that advice KB. No one had clued me into that in this process.  I've got one lead on a caregiver.  

Tomorrow I will telecommute and pick up all the gear for my mom's house - bed & toilet rails and a wheelchair ramp.  I have a wheelchair and walker already.  Saturday I'm taking for me - Stacy gifted me a massage and tub for Valentines, plus we have symphony tix.  Sunday, it's getting my mom home.  Monday and Tuesday I'm sorting out coverage so I can be at work.  That's as far out as I can think without imploding.  

Stacy is still very sick. She's been resting, although she had me pick up some coffee before withdrawal hits.  I went by Verve.  They asked how I was doing, and I said Stacy was sick, my office is moving and my mom is in the hospital.  They said how much they loved Stacy (she's a daily regular) and comped her single origin cap with well wishes for a quick recovery.  That little bit of kindness really touched me and I'm getting misty just thinking about it.

After Sunday I may be living in S'vale for some time.  That really saddens me.  I'll miss my ocean air so much.  But who knows when my mom might be able to spend a night alone again?